Ann Nee's Petrified Fountain of Thoughts.

New Blog Link

2010-10-01T12:47:00.000+08:00

After giving some thoughts, I decided to tell you guys my new blog link.
So checked it out ;)

http://petrified-fountain-of-thoughts.blogspot.com

I MOVED.

2010-09-24T01:27:00.000+08:00

I moved my blog.
This blog would remains.
Wanna start anew.
Those who wants to know my new blog.
Leave me comment, then I'll decided.
Because I take a look at who it is first.
Thanks alot for the support.
Totally thankful.

2010-09-22T17:10:00.000+08:00

I packed my room!
O.M.G
I packed for 4 hours~~~
And only half is done.
Too many things to pack and clean.
Didn't clean my room for quite long le, alot of dust.
Finally....
It's clean!
and neat too.
Yay!
Hopefully mummy can faster ask the people to renovate my floor.
Sucks manzx..
I need my new floor.
The one I'm currently having now is too messy and hard to manage.
-.-
Hopefully by this week, the floor would be done.
;)

Alright, gotta tidy my wardrobe later.
It's too pack.
-.-

I learnt... ...

2010-09-22T16:42:00.000+08:00

I don't know what happened.
I read their blogs.
And one of it seems to be unhappy with me.

It's not that I don't want to work.
Is because I really really cannot tahan.
Do you know one minute feels like one hour?
This job is really noy suitable for me.
I would rather not earn any money than working this job.
Need to thank Bran for helping out.

Working isn't about together with friends.
It's about individuals.
Of course when you work together with friends, your time would pass faster.
But when you go out in the real society, it's not about working together with friends anymore.
Sometimes, people would definitely think of themselves first, this is the fact when you would come to realise when you're out in the society.
This is in fact what I came to realise from people around me.
Even small little request that I asked, would get rejected.
But when people asked me?
If I can do it, I agree.
It's stupid.
And yes, I should be more rational next time.
Shouldn't be that stupid anymore.

I learnt so many things.

2010-09-22T01:22:00.000+08:00

When I was young, I never needed anyone.
And making love was just for fun
Those days are gone
Livin' alone
I think of all the friends I've known
When I dial the telephone, nobody's home

All by myself
Don't wanna be all by myself anymore.

Hard to be sure
Sometimes I feel so insecure
And loves so distant and obscure
Remains the cure

All by myself
Don't wanna be all by myself.
Anymore
All by myself
Don't wanna live all by myself.
Anymore

2010-09-22T00:54:00.000+08:00

Ok, this is stupid.
I had been thinking too much.
I feel terrible now.
Physically and emotionally.
:'(

I thought he would have just a little, a very little feelings for me.
It had all been a wishful thinking of me.
I like him.
-.-
I shouldn't but I did.
Yes, I did.
But he didn't.
I could tell.

Thanks for everything Branson.
I wished everything would go back to normal.
but you're not employing me anymore.
I can't even see you.
I don't know where I got this courage to tell you that I like you.
But I did and I've done.
Everything that you said will be remembered.
After the first day you said to drink more water, I brought one whole big bottle for work.
hahaha.

I feel like crying, it's like the feeling of heartbreak.
I'm experiencing it again.
I swore that I wouldn't want to go through it again, but I am going through with it now.

You replied and said you treated me so nicely because you saw your old self in me.
You made it worse.
Thanks alot.

Somehow I can't help but to agree to what you said,
I should take care of my health, looks and all.
Be more rational and focus.
Alright, watch me...
Give me some time, and I will show it to you guys.

2010-09-21T13:27:00.000+08:00

Keep asking me to do housework-.-
Angryyyyyyyyyy....
Arghhhhhhhhh.

I'm rotting at home...
And the process is just starting.
oh man.

How can I forget you when I used to fell so deep for you.
I'm still still still trying.
I tried to talk nicely to you, hoping you'll understand.
But you... ...
I have nothing more to say to you except 'Take Care'.
I don't know why till the end, I'm still being so nice.
But I had always wished for the best for you.
If you still continue drinking and smoking and all, you will be the one who is the loser, not me.
Even though I'm low-class and all, but at least I know I did nothing against my conscience.
Whatever you do, think of the consequences.
Y.O.U S.U.C.K.
&
G.R.O.W U.P.

2010-09-21T10:17:00.001+08:00

Now that I don't have a job, I think too relaxing liao...
Don't know what to do.
Shall pack my house then.
BYEEEE

2010-09-21T09:36:00.000+08:00

Da duh da duhhhhhh...
Presenting to you my new boss.
This was taken in NTUC.
Haha.
He's super nice and I can't thank him enough.
Went to meet him @ cck to have dinner.
Went BPP(Bukit Panjang Plaza) to eat @ Jack's place.
Alright, tell you guys a secret, it's my first time there.
So it's like O.M.G.
Thanks Bran.
And I'm like totally grateful for him to stock up for me with all those healthy food.
Thanks for everything you knowwwwwwwww....

You're the best employer I ever had in my life~~
Seriously.
And I believe you'll be very successful...
;)

2010-09-20T08:15:00.000+08:00

I'm up early.
I feel like a body clock once again.
Waking up early.
SUcks ttm.

Alright.
Met up Branson, my future boss.
And a new friend of mine.
I K.N.O.W Y.O.U W.I.L.L B.E R.E.A.D.I.N.G T.H.I.S.
Haha!!!
Ate bar choh mee together and YES~ MUST THANK BRAN FOR PAYING FOR MY MEALS.
Totally grateful.
And had a chat with him.
I don't know why, he gives people a sense of security so it's like I can tell him anything and everything.
haha.
But I don't know why am I being chosen.
LOL.
I'm neither pretty nor talented.
And he must have alot of people replying to his advertisement because it's really a good job.
So why me?
Still don't get it you know.
THANK YOU THANK YOU & THANK YOU^^

Alright, the thought of work gives me goose bumps.
It's gonna be a horror manxz.
Sianzzzzzzzzz.
Okay lah, got to go and prepare le.
I take a long time de.

AND WHY IS MY HAIR NOT GROWING LONGER?

2010-09-19T20:51:00.000+08:00

I'm finally back home after a tiring day.
Was hoping to rest at home since it's my only day off from work.
BUT NO.
:(
In the morning, I did housework, afternoon, went out with parents and my brothers for lunch, then when we came back, my brothers asked me to bring them for a swim.
Then now I'm back, I don't feel like resting anymore...
I can't find my swimwear, so I super duper unwillinglywore my bikini.
Then after I left my house, I realise it's abit to little.

So my brother lend me his shirt.
:P
Help my brothers look for a instructor.
Then sat there and read magazine since I got nothing do.
Guess what?
I forgot to change my bottom.
0.o
Damn stupid rightttt?
HAHAHAHA.

Alright, got to go.
When I think of working tomorrow, I totally have no mood.
OMG MY.
:(
BYE and PEACE(Y)

2010-09-19T12:39:00.000+08:00

I'm planning to buy an ipad.
Still planning...
Must see how much my pay is first..
If I earn more than 2000$, I will buy.
But then if lesser, I won't.
I still need to consider on my braces too.
I'm still owing mummy $$$.
Maybe pay her back by instalments?
I want my iPad~~~
It's my only motivation to workkkkk.
Jia You Ann Nee!

有感而发

2010-09-19T11:38:00.001+08:00

Working only 4 days at Flextronics as an operator made me very extremely S.H.A.G.
What to do?
Can't do anything.
I have countless cuts on my hand.
No wonder when I bathe, my hands hurts so much.
);
But the giood thing about this job is that we can work together with friends.
V.E.N.G W.A.I & W.E.I Y.I.N.G
^^

Took some photos with wai wai when we went toilet...
Nothing for us to do.
lol.

We took these photos in the toilet, so please pardon us alright.

Going library to return those me and bros borrowed then going for a swim.

O.M.G M.Y M.A.M.A

Whole body feels weak, but yea, in order to spend time with them, I gotta do so.

Headache+body ache+sorethroat+running nose+shagness = Lim Ann Nee = Me= Myself = I.

2010-09-18T00:32:00.000+08:00

I think my phone is awesome ^^
I used it for 3 days(today is the third) and the battery is not yet flat.
There's 7 parts and till now, it's only at the 5th.
Awesome right?
But the only one thing that made this phone bad is the lag-ness.
Very lag leh.
=.=

Another day had passed.
And what a day.
In the morning, I can't wake on time, was suppose to meet the rest @ 9.30am @ Tampines.
But I woke up @ 9.15am?
Washed up, pack my bag, brought my medicine then went on my way.
Took cab there.
Expensive leh =.=
But whatever.
Brought nasi lemak as dinner which is @ 6pm.
And guess what?
When I took out the packet, there was so many flies.
YUCKS TTM.
OMG, damn gross.
They were munching on my favourite chicken wing.
And there goes my dinner.
);
I only ate 2 kuehs in the morning till now, I just had my dinner.
In between, I kept drinking milo to keep myself full.
AND THANKS TO WAI WAI, she gave me half of bread.
Totally grateful.
<3

On my hand, there's countless cuts.
WTF.
Pain ttm when I bathe.
Really regret choosing this job.
;(
Too easy and simply boring.
Long hours standing too.
Although I'm trained to stand for long hours.
It's certainly not good for health.

I feel like crying on the way back to Bedok when talking to mummy on the phone.
Because of this job, I barely sees my family.
I didn't even spend time with them.
I miss seeing them.
When I come back home, mummy is out at work and daddy and bros are sleeping.
When I wake up and leave the house, they are still sleeping.
;'(
I MISS YOU ALL.
Not working this coming sunday because I'm not feeling really well.
Headache and all.
I could have bare with it, but I don't want.
I want to stay at home together with my brothers.
I wanna spend them with them ;)

Jie Jie loves you very very much still, just that I don't have the time to spend time with you.

When I get my pay, I promise that I'll bring you two out and have fun alright?

Maybe go kite-flying?

Didn't you two said you all haven't done it for years?

So when I'm free, I bring you all out alright?

I hope you love Jie Jie as much as Jie Jie loves you!

Although I know you wouldn't be reading this, but I just wanna say I love you two <3

Be a good boy and study hard lahhhhh.

Can or not???

Jie Jie's temper very bad one hor, you two should have tried my 'hot-temper' alot of times le bah?

Sorry kay, I'm trying to change my temper.

Improving and improving.

PEACE(Y)

2010-09-17T00:19:00.003+08:00

Wanted to read the older posts like I always like to do as a pastime, but this time I skipped a huge portion.
I don't want to create unneccessary emotions.
But I wouldn't want to delete this blog although I want to.
Too much pain here.
Wait till I have the time first.
I'll begin on a new journey~

All of a sudden, my vision become blurry when I thought of the first kiss we had and you saying you felt like kissing the girl who claimed that she was the luckiest girl on this earth when her face was so close to yours. I can't demolish the memories, but I believe I can get over with it and I'm half there already. And I hope you burn those letters which I spent hours and hours at night writting and decorating, and please don't ever ever appear in front of me ever again, because I HATE YOU.

To my loviest and dearest Wei Ran... ...

2010-09-17T00:09:00.000+08:00

Wei Ran~~~
Are you reading this, if so, please please please leave a comment alright?
I'm missing you.
Really missing you.
I didn't change much, at least not alot.
I'm growing up, but why isit that I have to go through so many during the process?
Isit really true that it'll make us stronger and more mature?
Especially when it comes to relationship.
It sucks.
I really want you back );
When will be the day we will see each other again?
Laughing face to face.
I need your encouragement, your reassurance.
I WANT YOU BACK, WEI RAN.

2010-09-17T00:02:00.000+08:00

Work was AMAZING not.
=.=
My feet feels numb.
As though these 2 long fat chopsticks doesn't belong to me.
Work was pretty good.
It's a simple and boring job which allows to lose weight and get cut.
I'm an expert at folding boxes, ALL KINDS, long, square, rectangular, small, big, you name it, I'll do it.
My hands have lots of cuts now.
);
I'm super careless but because they want effeciency, especially the auntie working with me.
Anyway, my job position is OPERATOR.

Tomorrow I'm gonna 3/4 pants or leggings with a t-shirt.
And I'm gonna bring some sweets with me.
Because I almost fainted today-.-
That happens with a weak body.

Tomorrow gonna work for 12hours straight from 11am to 11pm.
Good luck to me, hopefully the ambulance doesn't come.
I'm already looking forward to the pay-taking day!
^^

Alright,gotta go nowww.
BYeeeeee.
PEACE(Y)

2010-09-16T10:29:00.003+08:00

Alright, recruitexpress called and asked us to go for work later.
And it'll be more of admin!
Bravo.
It's a blessing in disguise ;)

STAR

2010-09-16T10:21:00.002+08:00

The wind is shaking the windows,and over my small room,
The stars fill up the sky, shining brightly too many to count,
The stars reassure tired me
They wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me
Don’t be hurt too much..they hug me tight and pamper me
and comfort me,
Telling me to go to sleep
Though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walk
Though my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get
Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart, like those countless number of stars, forever
My dream is coming. though it is unusual that my one star is bright
It is very bright, even blinding..it comes down to my shoulder
Stop being so sad..it holds my hand as it touches me
and gives me a warm hug
Though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walkthough my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get
Only for today, I won’t cry though my eyes fill with tears
I want to laugh like those stars
Oh~ I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart
Like those countless number of stars, forever

Thoughts... ...

2010-09-15T23:29:00.000+08:00

Had lots of emotions inside me all of a sudden and I decided to pen down my thoughts on this beloved blog of mine.
I went through many ups and downs.
I was borned in quite a wealthy family initially.
But when dad and mum came Singapore, many things changed.
Especially when dad got hooked on gambling.
He never drink and smoke, but he gambles.
Slowly, our family got into a very bad state.
Poor and pathetic.
They used to quarrel every night while I was sleeping.
I know and I heared, but I just kept quiet.
That happened when I was still very young, around K2.
Money was always a problem.
Things worsen when my brothers came.
Expenses were very heavy, this made us poorer.
But it didn't bring mum down.
She is the strongest person in this family.
I really admire her.
She went out for work when my brothers and I was very young.
But still it didn't change much, because dad's habit never change.
Up till now.
My life went through alot alot.
My brothers are my precious.
Although I might be very harsh on them, they are really my precious.
I can't bear to live without them.
I love them.

I went through 3 relationships.
One was very not serious and second was quite serious until he left me and went malaysia to study.
Last? Sucks. I hate him to the core, I put in so much, my everything but he pushed me away as though I'm a rubbish because he said I'm low-class.
I missed the times spent with Wei Jie, although it's very simple like eating, shopping, watching movie, I always feel loved and happy.
Being loved is always better than loving someone.
I know.

I used to be a very friendly person.
But I'm not now.
When I see new faces, I wouldn't bother.
Isit part of growing up?
Close friends?
Wai Wai, Ah Ying and Alvin?
I can count with one hand.
Pathetic?
To some it may seems pathetic, but I don't feel that way.
Friends are there to support you, giving you geniuie feedbacks, hoping the best for you.
I wouldn't want friends that are a negative influence to me.
Even if I have friends that doesn't have a good influence on me, I would learn to know the 'right's and 'wrong's.
I-don't-know-how-should-I-put-it.

In conclusion, at the end of the day, be happy.
SMILE READERS.
PEACE(Y)

2010-09-15T22:57:00.000+08:00

HELLLLLLOOOO.
I'm back with fire in my stomach.
F.U.C.K.
Wa lau, went for orientation with Wai Wai and Ah Ying today @ 2.30pm.
But before that we went to have our lunch @ McDonalds.
Then after that proceeded to Technopark to have the orientation.
BORING SHIT.
Almost fell asleep.
Yawns a thousand times.
*kidding, exaggerating*
After the orientation, we went to the ulu ulu place to start the actual work.
And guess what, the supervisor said there was some miscommunication between recruitexpress and HR then said we had to leave.
W.T.F
I was very pissed and so were the others.
There were 7 of us.
But on the other hand, I was pleased because after seeing the environment, I didn't want to work anymore.
So hot and humid.
LOL.
So we went on our way back.
Took bus 37 back to Tampines interchange and then Wai Wai went back, me and Ah Ying went to play arcade.
SOOOO FUNNYYY.
Played Para Para alot of times, then came this guy whose not bad-looking.
He followed me at the side playing, then after that when I was watching Ah Ying play, he asked me whether I want to join him to play the Dance Revolution, I told him I don't want.
So nice of him right?
He's very funny leh, when Ah Ying playing half way, he asked her whether he can play or not?
Then Ah Ying say okay, then he played with a very funny face because the song is very 'weird' face.
Then me and Ah Ying keep laughing.
REALLY VERY FUNNY.
But his very cute and nice too.

After that we went away and played basketball.
Played alot of times also.
Had a fun time.

Then I went on to buy earrings and a scarf.
^^
Ate at the pasa malam too.
Next, we went home le.

Had a fun time today.
Thanks babes;)

2010-09-15T10:32:00.000+08:00

Today is a good day ;)
It's raining at East side now and it's really very very windy.
I like it.

2010-09-14T21:41:00.002+08:00

上一次的恋情
因为那次的失恋，让我改变了 .

说回头来，那时我真的很难过.
可能得不到的东西，就特别的放不下.
是放不下.....还是自己输不起 ?

‘时间会冲淡一切’
这是真的 .=)

可是因为他，我会想了.
分手了，我也曾经幸福过.

被背叛后........

不想问，你爱过吗?
因为，这已经不重要了.

如果你觉得你们还有一丝丝的机会
你可以坚持.
因为我相信，总有一天你们会复合的.

如果你觉得，你们已经不可能了 .
下一步，你要做的 .
不是去默默地祝福他，继续爱他 .

不要让他觉得，你很放不下他.
等他回来似的.

因为你们已经不可能了 .
你已经输给他了，你不可以再输给你自己！

把自己变得更漂亮，更完美.
用行动告诉他: 你选择的不是我，绝对是你的损失！

当一切过去后，你不再爱他了.
你也不会恨他，你会想谢谢他 .

谢谢他给你的礼物.
因为他，你长大了.......................!

失恋了，站起来吧 .
对自己自信一点，你一定可以找到更好的 .=)

2010-09-14T21:26:00.003+08:00

You know I'm really very grateful to you.
Thanks for loving so much, I see myself in you.
I know you won't be reading this, but I still wanna say THANK YOU.
I totally know how you feel.
I'm sorry for not able to get it from the beginning.
And see what mess I've got into.
I'm just a foolish person, but definitely not 'LOW CLASS'.
I'm starting to get what you mean, and I'm responding to it.

YO PEEEEEEPS.
I'm back home sniffing non-stop!
I don't know whyyyyyy.
Went running just now.
But I didn't even run, only brisk walk.
LOL.
I CAN'T RUN.
Jia lat manzxzxx.
Stamina down to 0.
=.=
ANYWAY, I went for my braces appointment and guess what?
I need to extract 4 teeth.
OH MY TIAN.
My teeth are not aligned, overcrowding, and my wisdom tooth are coming out soon and very slantedly.
And Doctor said that it'll grow during the period with my braces on.
And FYI, extracting of wisdom tooth are extremely expensive which means that when they grow, I need to go back to Malaysia to extract them.
AND THERE'S 4.
*faint*
My next appointment would be on the 28oct and on 2nov, I would officially have my braces on;)
Hopefully I'll be able to lose weight :D
AND... ... It'll mean a brand new start!
I'm gonna feel very different after having them.
And I'm having new classmates when school reopens which is on 24oct!
YAY!

Tomorrow would be the day I'm working with Veng Wai and Wei Ying/
FIRST TIME manzxzxzx.

Alright, gotta go and prepare tomorrow's bag.
Tissues(for my nose), make-up(for my eyes -- to cover my super cui eye bags and dark eye circles), iTouch(to listen to songs), wallet&phone(you know for what, like duh?) and myself ^^
BYE GUYSSSSSSS.
Thanks readers for reading till the end, although you never leave me a comment to tell me who you are...
):

Curing my back...

2010-09-14T14:13:00.000+08:00

I'm applying some organic stuffs on my back.
Hoping it'll cure.
=.=
I've tried many ways already and spent alot of kaching kaching le.
alemak.

2010-09-14T09:52:00.002+08:00

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YO PEEPS!
Good morning :D
I'm super excited about my braces appointment later on.
;D
Then I'm meeting Grace to talk about insurance.
HEALTH IS REALLY IMPORTANT~
I need to give you guys a gentle reminder from time to time.
Don't say I'm naggy alright.
Daddy went for check-up and realised that he had high-blood pressure and diabetes.
;'(
I almost cried out when I heard.
I went to toilet straight but I managed to control.
Tears didn't flow out.
What a news.
Daddy is 50 years old already.
After he know about his health, he treated us very nicely.
He even taught me how to ride motor and car.
So scaryyyyyy.
Motor was much easier than car.

Tomorrow would be the first I'm starting work.
Together with WeiYing.
Can't wait can't wait.
We're working afternoon shift from 3pm-11pm.
That means we have the whole morning to ourselves.
YAY.

Alright, need to go and take my medicine.
My condition is definitely worsening, memory loss like siao and my skin are very very very dry!
ALEMAK.
Alright, gotta go.
Buyyyyyyy.
NO~
I mean BYEEEEEEE.

2010-09-13T22:00:00.001+08:00

I finally came around

I'm back on solid ground

can't let it get me down.

yes I was burned,

but I call it a lesson learned

mistake overturned,

so I call it a lesson learned

my soul has returned

so I call it a lesson learned

2010-09-13T21:47:00.002+08:00

I've changed my phone ;)
I wanna throw away that phone.
I wanna start afresh with a new phone.

This is my beloved phone ;)

Brought my brothers for movie today and guessed what?
I SPENT ONE HUNDRED BUCKSSSSS~~
25 on movie.
and then remainding on arcade.
OH MY TIANNNN AHHH.
Anyway, I'm damn pissed about one thing.
FUCKING PISSED.
Am I a low-class person?
What a lousy excuse to give?
I'm utterly disappointed in you.
Freaking disappointed.
Whatever, even if I'm a low-class person, I don't find anything wrong with it.
If you're so 'high-class' person, go find someone 'high-class' too.
Bet there's so many 'high-class' person on your LIST.
wa lau.
Tham Hao Rong, I HATE YOU.
Don't think I can't do without you, because without you, my life goes on and IT'S EVEN BETTER.
Fucking get it clear, you are gonna go nowhere with who you are right now.
Get lost.
And I'm gonna get lost from now on.

Alicia Keys - Lesson Learnt

2010-09-13T21:28:00.000+08:00

I'm very very lazy to upload all the photos, so I just upload some alright?

I'M BACK~

2010-09-12T17:35:00.003+08:00

OMG OMG!
I'm back from Malaysia^^
I have super alot of things to tell you guys!
But not now pleaseeeeeeeeee.
I'm VERY VERY VERY tired leh.
Haha.
Tomorrow then I update alright?
I update abit now first.
Love you people!
*MUACKS*

When I come back, on the way.
I had lots of emotions inside me.
It'd been half a year since I went back.
It was because of him, I didn't bear to leave him that's why I always refused to go back.
The smell of cow dung.
The smell of the grass,
The smell of my uncle's cigrattes.
The sound of the horns,
The sound of the coffee shop.
Everything seems so simple there.
So how-should-I-put-it ehhhhh, so relaxing.
It's so different from Singapore.
I'm starting to love Malaysia.
Over there, I could live freely, happily, smiling.

I wished I could go overseas to study.
Think I wanna go Taiwan or Kuala Lumpur to study.
haha.
I wished that my cousin could stay with me.
I dote on her alot okayyyy.
haha.

The few days in Malaysia made me think throroughly.
It was certainly so silly.
LOL.
But who cares?
It's his problem.
None of my business anymore.
^^

and I'm in love ;)

2010-09-09T11:43:00.001+08:00

Sitting at engine school's bench alone.
Waiting for wei Ying and others.
Somehow, i feel really down.
Really really down.
I feel like crying, but I'm gonna control.
I didn't put in my effort.
This is gonna be the first and last time I'm gonna be like this.
When school reopens, i'm gonna be a brand new person.

I suck.
)';

2010-09-09T05:37:00.001+08:00

Bravo!
I didn't sleep for the whole night!!
First time!
Last time, was like maybe at least 2 hours of sleep but today?!
0 hours!
Lol.
I swear I'm gonna have a good sleep tonight or tomorrow!
Anyway... ...
Was chatting with this guy called James on facebook.
Haha.
It'd been quite a while since I chatted with someone 'like this'. As in very long and all.
^^
I know you'll read this portion!
I wanna say THANK YOU:)
Eat and cycling!!!
Haha.

Guess what, I only studied half of HRM.
The other half I can't find the notes!!!

Whatever it is, after today, I can have a goodnight!

Getting my pay today.
But before that think I meeting Alvin and wei Ying.
(:
It'd been a long long time since I saw alvin.
I'm pretty worried for him, shall have a good talk with him later on.

Suddenly I get it! My pimples are multiplying because I'm sleeping late every night!
Oh my, I think when I come home today, 2 or 3 pimples will surface!
Alemak!
Nvm nvm.
When I go back Malaysia, my skin confirm will become better de(;

Alright. I'm gonna read through it once more!
Ann Nee jia you!!!!

2010-09-09T02:26:00.001+08:00

OMG.
I think tonight, I don't need to go to bed le.
)':

2010-09-09T02:23:00.001+08:00

我还不明白
为什麽你离开了我
没有你的电话
没有一封信
我每天晚上在这里
哪里也不想去
可是我好爱你
我觉得我会离不开你
可惜我丢了你
慢慢我的眼泪留下来
-回家lyrics.

2010-09-09T01:48:00.001+08:00

I'm drinking soup now.
Didn't eat my dinner today.
Taking a break from the revision.

I feel like doing classic manicure.
Don't know whether my kampong back there have or not.
I wanna doooo manxz.
Wanted to do highlight and treatment for my hair too.

Feel so bimbotic all of a sudden.

Alright, gonna get back to revision le.
BYE ):
PEACE(Y)

I'm starting to love my packed life... ...

2010-09-08T22:32:00.002+08:00

Hello readers:)
OMG.
I was feeling very shag so I went home and lie on the sofa, not long, maybe after 5 mins, I was sleeping already.
AND SHARKS!
I haven't started on my revision for my HRM paper tomorrow morning!
I've just drank a cup of kopi, hope it'll helps me stay awake!
AND GOOD NEWS!
.
.
.
Wei Ying and I are working at Technopark as operators for one month starting next wednesday.
YAY!
It's 6$/hour and 8 hours per day.
We chose the afternoon shift which is from 3-11pm.
Because got extra shift allowance of 5$ each day!
It's a very easy job somemore.
Hopfully I don't have to take supp paper, if not need take MC liao-.-
I don't want lahhhhhh.
Troublesome.
But I can't wait for it to start.
Braces appointment next tuesday then start work on Wednesday!
^^
(:
Working with Wei Ying somemore.
OMG, YES TTM.
I think I'm going to work as Epson promoter on weekends.
In this way, I can earn more:)
I need lots of 'kaching kaching' for braces.
And if there's extra, for buying a electric accoustic guitar and the lessons~

Alrightttttt, enough for blogging.
I really need to go chiong chiong chiong already^^
Anyway, I'm going back malaysia on friday night.
Don't miss me too much alright?
I would be back by Sunday night.
Then monday have a good rest.
Tuesday braces appointment
and finally Wednesday start work!
Yes, my schedule is packed.
I LOVE IT.

PEACE(Y)

2010-09-07T20:26:00.000+08:00

I'm looking forward to my braces appointment~
And I need a spectacles.
My eyesight damn jia lat.
Hai yo.
But seriously, I look very weird in specs.
I tried many, but it just doesn't look and feel right.
LOL.
And I don't dare to wear contact lens.
zzz
See how it goes first.
I need my braces first.
That's my first priority.
(:

2010-09-07T20:20:00.001+08:00

Anyway, I'm finding someone to give me my cigarettes.
Smoked with Li Kai today.
With cigarettes on my hands, I feel like smoking.
LOL.
I'm NOT addicted alright.
Just wanna help myself be more awake that's all.
I'm not hooked on it.
:)

2010-09-07T20:14:00.001+08:00

2010-09-07T20:11:00.004+08:00

Just came back home!!!
Went with Li Kai to take pay^^
Wa lau, waited for damn long again!
Around 1.5 hours of waiting, we finally got our pay.
AND GUESS WHAT?
I only managed to take basic pay of 200$.
Fucked up.
The commission for PC had dragged for 3 months liao.
Then now the audiohouse comm is dragging too.
Super angry sia.
Mummy asked me not to continue anymore.
But I'm used to the job le.

Going back to Malaysia this coming fri or sat!
Daddy driving us back!
YESSSS~
I wanna do treatment for my hair~

Anyway, treated my brothers to a very sumptous meal at Pizza Hut.
I spent 50+ just for a meal.
OMG.
Super full ttm!
Hope they are happy:)

^^

PEACE(Y)

I don't wanna talk about it, how you broke my heart.

2010-09-06T22:47:00.001+08:00

Listening:
I Never Told You by Colbie Caillat

A Random Post.

2010-09-06T22:06:00.001+08:00

I'm sitting at sofa using iTouch to blog now.
Haha.
I went toilet for don't know how many times already!
Think I ate something wrong today=.=
jia lat.

Can't wait to get pay!!!
Meeting Li Kai and Wai Wai!
After that I think I going library to chiong my HRM(:
I don't want retake both papers!!!!!

Wei Jie!
Faster come back singapore!
I'm still waiting for you to bring me around to play lehhhhh~~~

Anyway, if my aunty and cousins not coming this week, then daddy say bring us back!
Finally!
I wanna go back~
I miss my old kampong place):
So much memories.
Ahaha.

And thanks Yi Hsiang for your advice kay!
I will try my best not to smoke often...
Thankssssssss.

I wanna play around!
Enjoy my life while I can!

Readers, if you hadn't been feeling very happy nowadays, CHEER UP alright!

SMILE^^ (: :)
I love you alright.
If you're a follower of my blog, you would realise my life are filled with ups and downs.
More of downs.
But yet, I always could walk out of darkness and continue with life.
I hope you can too.
If you have any questions or advice, feel free to tell me! I would love to know.

I'm no longer missing him as much as I do before.
I even started to stop loving him.
One day, he is gonna get his right one.
And I'm gonna be together with mine.
I've learnt many lessons.
Valuable lessons.

Promises are bullshit.
Girls, don't indulge yourself with what he promises.
If so, you would be feel the painfulness.
Really, when guys wants you, they can say a thousand words making you happy.
But when they don't want you, they can say a million words giving you hell.

Give careful thought before you commit.
Because when you really love him with all your heart, you would realise that there's no way for you to turn back.
And the one and only way, was to experience what I experienced.
It was terrible.
Tremendously terrible.
So I'm givng you a word of advice.
That's all I got to say.
:)
Others are up to you.

PEACE(Y)

2010-09-06T18:08:00.000+08:00

Took a short nap.
SHIOK MANZX.
LOL.

I think I look younger with my hair like this^

2010-09-06T16:39:00.001+08:00

Look at my cute little ribbon clips!
Super cute rightttt.
I KNOW.
Because my taste damn good.
HAHAHAHA(BHB right?)

Anyway, I'm mentally prepared to take supplementary paper, because I confirm chop chop fail Finance.
It's a 2-hour paper but I used half an hour to finish it.
I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO ALMOST ALL.
Good luck Ann Nee.
You deserve it.
):

Never mind, I'm gonna study hard for the supp paper.
LOL!
Had a fun day with Wai Wai!
Went to have our super full meal, then headed to TM to play arcade!
Then went shopping for accessories!
Bought my pretty ribbon clips~
haha.
After that I wanted to took a puff, but Wai Wai keep stopping me.
But I wanted to, so I did.
Then came this old auntie trying to con my money.
She said she needed 10$ for her family.
Initially, I did wanted to give her, but I remembered, I only left 8$.
So I called for Veng Wai, she said she didn't have, then I asked her to go ask from others.
HAHA.
THinking back, this auntie must be a liar.
She wore make-up leh.
How come no $$$ neh???
TSK.
Luckily this time I didn't get tricked.
The previous lesson was enough for me le.

HAha.
Taking pay tomorrow!
YESSSSSS!!!
Finally manzx.
Need to put aside some $ for my braces and bags.
Then others need save le.

Alright, enough for today.
Stomache, I go shit.
PEACE(Y)

2010-09-06T07:13:00.002+08:00

GG.
I'm practical reading through without understanding it.
If I pass, I should be at a corner laughing to myself.
Zzz.
Nothing goes in my head now.
Fuck it.

2010-09-06T00:53:00.002+08:00

他很好，
是我自己不好。

That's what I say.

Why can't you be more polite and understanding?

2010-09-05T23:59:00.000+08:00

What a bastard.
I told him not to smoke too much and in the end, what I got was a reply saying 'Don't be disgusting(: '
Super fucked up I swear.
Seriously, up to him already.
From now onwards, I'm not gonna interfere anything got to do with him anymore.
He have so much to learn.
Manners and everything.
ZZz.

if one day, I stop mentioning about you,
it would mean, I have put you behind me.

2010-09-05T22:19:00.000+08:00

Smoked 2 in just half an hour.
First time when I asked Zhang Teng for lighter, then jio him along.
Saw the leg behind that truck and I know straight away it was him.
He was smoking too.

Zhang Teng damn funny can.
Keep making me laugh.
Then after that went with Li Kai.
He smoke damn fast.
I left quite abit when he finished.
LOL.

Edge also keep making me smile.
Thanks alot.
Sorry for making you worried.
I didn't mean too.

There's so many things to say.
But I don't know how to put it in words.
So just let it be in my heart bah.
Doesn't make much difference if I said it out.
ALL I WANNA SAY ARE FRIENDS PLAY A VERY IMPORTANT PART IN OUR LIVES.
Don't blame others for giving you comments, because you can't see it for yourself and you need someone to tell it to you.
And if there isn't anyone giving you comments, reflect for yourself.
Not as if I'm trying to make it hard for you, she/he might be a very good friend and buddy, but she/he might be giving you bad influence.
And this, depends on how strong you are, to make your stand.
This is all I can say.

A white flag is above my door,
Cause you got everything that you came here for,
Got what you needed, now I'm bleedin, and defeated
And I'm out of love

When will I then be able to forget... ...

2010-09-05T15:56:00.002+08:00

I'm in my room now.
For the past 2 weeks, I barely stayed at home.
Today is the first time... ...
I'm tired.
Tired mentally.
I don't want to love him and think about him anymore.
I'm just not good enough for him.
So what for make my life miserable?
From the beginning, it was a mistake.
A terrible mistake.

With my health like this, I don't even dare to be with WJ.
Afraid that I will drag him down.
I know he love me alot, but yet... ...
I feel guilty I don't love him as much as he do.
And most importantly, I told myself, I would never want to experience the pain ever.Never.

Pardon me readers, I really think I need a long time to get over with this.
It's very hard.
But yet it seems so easy for him.
I had stayed firm even though friends told me to break up with him.
But it was him who pulled him up, him, himself, the person I loved.
How am I suppose to stay firm anymore?
I never doubt my relationship with him even though there were many negative attacking me.
But I know clearly what I wanted.
I wanted to be with him forever.
I even wanted to marry him.
But very obviously, he didn't think it that way.
It breaks my heart.

But whatever is it, I'm trying to move on with my life, without him with me.
I admit, I don't even feel like going to school.
I wanna keep myself busy, I keep working and working, hoping to forget him in this way.
I admit, I always feel like smoking.
I wanna make myself numb in this way because I realise whatever I do, I always think of him.
Even simple things like walking home,
I would paused by the playgorund, and stare at the swing here swing there chair.
That was the place, where we celebrated our 4th month.
When I go to 85 market, I would think of him.
He always loved to eat the tang yuan, me too.
But I never eat it anymore.
Me and him always like to have our dinner there.
But I never eat food there anymore.
I even tried to avoid going there.
When isit then I will be able to get over?

2010-09-05T14:14:00.001+08:00

Wanted to go Church today, but I didn't go.
Somehow, I got this devil's voice asking me not to go, and I actually abide to it.

Tomorrow I'm having Business Finance Paper.
OMG.
Super nervous ttm manzx.
I read through 4 lectures last week, but by now, I forgot everything le. =.=
Later need to chiong chiong chiong already~~~

Braces appointment coming le.
Next tuesday!!!
Can't wait~
And then I think I wanna save money to get an iPhone too.
Going with Jereme, Sam and Wee How one day this week to sign up for FTT.
^^

Alright, gonna study soon.
BYE.
Those who have their papers, jia you alright~
Gambette!!!
PEACE(Y)

2010-09-05T01:07:00.000+08:00

OMG...
Super shag ttm manzx!
Summary for sales for the past 3 days,
I'm very contented with my performance, not trying to be proud or show-off, but I think I did well:)
My booth got the champion for sales for the full 3 days!
YAY!
First day, 100.
Second day, 144.
Today, 162.
Thank God!

I'm not working tomorrow.
Partly because my hyperthyroid kinda worsen because I blacked out this morning and on monday, I have my paper.
I wanna rest and study and go church!
Yesssssss, thank God again!
I actually prayed that I wanna go church tomorrow because got holy communion and I'M GOING!
I didn't think of it till just now.
It's all being planned for me already^^

I SMOKED, believe it or not, I smoked.
Shocking right?
Why?
Because I want to know how was he actually feeling when he smoke.
I know it's stupid, but yes, I did it.
I didn't regret...
It was alright.
And I don't mind doing it again.
I have a pack of cigarettes with me, I mean it's alright?
LOL.
Maybe you guys are thinking I'm getting naughtier and worser, but I don't really care.
zzz.
Maybe I am, maybe I'm not.
But whatever it is, I'm still me.
Maybe Edge is right, I should be the bad person so that I won't get hurt that much anymore.
Although I know it's not right, I can't help agreeing to what he said, he's right.
I should find someone.
But yet, I'm so... ugly?
Look at girls that are around Hr, so beautiful, so pretty, so slim.
Then look at me, totally opposite.
Somehow, I understand why he flirts with girls already.
Which guy don't like pretty girls?
lol.
Don't wanna talk about it anymore.

I should be happy, for performing well for this Comex^^
(:

Anyway, ate Mcdonald for the 2 days in a row for supper.
LOL.
Super fatty lahhh.
BUT I DON'T CARE LE.
haha.

I'm super shag manzx.
Gonna go and give my beloved brothers and sisters in Christ tomorrow!
Got to go and have a rest now.
But before that I want to see a show first!

GOODNIGHT.
love you readers.
PEACE(Y)

2010-09-03T01:29:00.000+08:00

I've just reached home.
Super late rightttttt.
Wa lau, my legs aching like crazy and I can't even walk the steps properly.
Yesterday, wait I mean, the day before yesterday, I helped up with the set up, squat down, stand up, squat down stand up.
ZZZ.
Then yesterday need to stand whole day to do demo.

I forgot to eat medicine for 2 freaking days lahhh.
diieeeeeeee.
Getting serious.
I KNOW IT~

=...=

2010-09-02T00:16:00.000+08:00

I'm scared manzx.
I can't relax myself.

2010-09-01T23:56:00.001+08:00

After a long day, I'm sitting here blogging.
What a day!
Shouldn't wear jeans and low-waist jeans.
TSK.
I think I 'zao geng（走光)' alot of times cannnn~
=.=

Reached Suntec @ 4.30pm and helped out with the setup of booths.
After all the setup and everything, the horror begins.
I had to practice again!
Super nervous ttm~
I can feel myself trembling and my heartbeat was like 'thump thump thump...' super fast.

Desmond was strict, and he didn't smile, which makes me very scared.
I had trying to control my stress.
But at last I couldn't control and tears starts rolling down, I was afraid, I'm not confident with myself.
I felt that I couldn't make it.
I regret, regretted accepting this demo artise role.
But yet, I wanna have a high pay.
I need money.
Not only for myself, but also for my brothers, for my family.
There's so many things I wanna learn and do.

Tomorrow will be the big day for me.
I'm gonna give my all already.
I'm super nervous ttm.
Don't think I can get to sleep tonight...
God, be with me please!
Amen!

After the training, took train alone back to Bedok and had my dinner alone.
Then came this old couple.
Who asked me whether I'm an actress.
LOL.
Of course not, I replied.
Then they started talking to me non-stop.
NON-STOP.
I ate my noodles for 45mins!!!
OH MY.
lol.

Meeting cherylene 9am @ Esplanade station's platform.
Gonna have our Mcdonald breakfast together!
She's working with Edge, Lance and Hao Rong they all.
Really hope they can take good care of her.
It's her first time and she's definitely very scared.
I UNDERSTAND!
I need to wake up at freaaaaakkkking 7am kay!
Need to walk to inter then help daddy pay for his carpark.
Wa lauuuuuu.
Tiring leh.

My eye bags are very scary and my face tone sucks ttm.
Thanks to Mr. HyperThyroid for invading me.
And, bravo, I forgot to eat my medicine again.
My throat really getting bigger.
No joke this time, I can feel and see it.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhh~

Message From God... ...

2010-09-01T14:19:00.000+08:00

On this day, God wants you to know

... that you are beautiful.

Even when you feel ugly or depressed or guilty or ashamed,

there is an inner spark in you which is light.

This light is your beauty.

This light is your reflection of God.

You are a child of God,

thus you are beautiful.

2010-09-01T14:05:00.004+08:00

这段情就算曾经刻骨且铭心过
过去了又改变什么
我不难过了甚至真心希望你能幸福
我不恨你了甚至原谅你的残忍理由
当我从你眼中发现我已是陌生人了
我已是陌生人了
--- 陌生人

This relationship had once been so precious.
I couldn't accept the fact that you left, but now... ...
Everything is over, what can I change?
I can't change nothing.
I wish the best for you.
And I know I'm only a stranger to you from that day onwards.
(:
Jia you Jia you Jia you!!!

2010-09-01T13:44:00.001+08:00

泪湿的枕头乾就好.

原来眼泪在你的心里只是无理取闹.

可是哪个女人对爱不自私不奢望.

-原来你什么都不想要

2010-09-01T13:16:00.000+08:00

This was what my cute little primary 1 tutee gave me for teacher's day prezzie.
Very sweet of her right? (:

2010-09-01T12:21:00.002+08:00

2010-09-01T12:05:00.001+08:00

Good Morning Peeps!
I'm back from Mandy's place.
I cycled there!
OMGzzzz, super tiring!
The trip there was like alot of up slope.
Wa liewwwww.
So the trip back was much much easier.
I'm super black now.
It's a warm day.

Got a present from Mandy;)
It's a teachers' day prezzie^^
Thanks!

TODAY IS TEACHERS' DAY!
I have the urge to go back school.
But yet, I have no one to go with.
So I decided not to go.
I'm that kind who doesn't have much friends around me.
I have friends, many, but not close at all.
What do I mean by close?
When I need a listening ear, I would think of those who are close to me.
I'm so used to keep things to myself since I'm in Polytechnic.
I don't know why.
Maybe that's just me.
(:

Teachers that made a huge impact in my life are:

In Saint Anthony's Canossian Primary School,
Mrs Catherine Tan was the teacher that had been very patient with me, she is someone who is very understanding and because of her, my PSLE for english and math got an 'A'.
She is a very good teacher.

And Mdm Kok Yuet Heng, she's my higher chinese teacher, she was the one who keep telling me I'm very good, even though I think I'm not good enough. She placed trust in me which made me feel very good.

In Saint Anthony's Canossian Secondary School,
Ms Lim Mui Mui Adeline was my favourite teacher, she teaches Humanities both Social Studies and Geography.She's someone I feel that I can never find anyone similar anymore. To me, I feel that she is the best teacher that you can ever find. She is fierce, but she is very nice and caring. I miss her very very much. She never fail to care for us. Because of her, our class was very bonded. I really love her.

And Mrs Margaret Teo too. They are 2 very good friends. And they both cared for me very much. Mrs Teo teaches Pure Chemistry and because my chem was really lousy, I never pass before. NEVER. but she didn't give up on me. She taught me with patience, and I got a C6, not very good, but I passed.

Not forgetting Mrs Adelene Cheong!!!She's my A math teacher. She's someone who teaches us values of life during classes. She's a very how should I put it...a very 尽职 teacher.

Mr Quek Joo Siah~~He's my combinced science Physics teacher. A funny but yet serious teacher, He slways try to make the class understand his lessons. Very nice.

I MISS THEM VERY MUCH~

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY! <3

2010-08-31T22:06:00.002+08:00

Alright, shall shut down my lappie now!
Been using for many hours le.
Gonna read the book I borrowed from Library called 'War Child -- A story of survivial
Byeeeeee.

(braces appointment cominggggg!)

I can't even remember which day we went on our seperate ways.

2010-08-31T21:40:00.000+08:00

I remember vivdly the pain was so unbearable.
So painful that I just kept crying and crying non-stop.
So hurt that my heart was aching like crazy.
):

GAMBETTE!

2010-08-31T21:24:00.003+08:00

Left a message at tagboard, I don't know whether he'll read it,
but I just told him anyway,

"I don't hate you anymore.And I'm sorry.Bye.Jia you for your sales.I always know you can do it."

"Don't give yourself too much stress. and sleep earlier bah.Health is very important.Really."

2010-08-31T20:48:00.000+08:00

Going Suntec tomorrow to set up for Comex.
And Jeanie asked me to go down because need to help with set up plus practice.
THE REAL THING.
ahhhhhhhh, 救命啊！
Super nervous you mei you~
Only I using the microphone lehhhhhz.
I need to relax, BREATHE IN~~~~ BREATHE OUT~~~~
God will bless me^^

So after that Mandy's tuition, I need to head down straight le.
Daddy and the rest went to eat the lunar seven month dinner.
LOL.
The food are very nice okay, but I didn't go.. ..
It's good in a way, if I didn't go, then I wouldn't gain any weight!
HAHA.

I go see videos.
PEACE(Y)

Message From God... ...

2010-08-31T19:48:00.003+08:00

On this day, God wants you to know 
...  that when you are feeling anxious, remember to breathe.
Allow yourself  to breathe in and out slowly.
Allow your breath to bring you to a place  of calmness. 
Allow yourself to be calm like the eye in the center of the  storm.

I don't hate you anymore... ...

2010-08-31T18:57:00.004+08:00

Petrified with my thoughts.
I know you are really doing well.
You are happy.
I know.
But why is it that you can so easily go on but I can't?
My brains were filled with your promises.
And those letters I wrote for you, every stroke I pen down, were written with love and care.
I gave my all.
But yet... ...
Maybe I'm just not good for you neither am I your right one.
You have so much choices to choose.
So many nicer ones, better ones.
Hope you can find someone to share your joy and sorrows.
Don't keep everything to yourself.
Share more.
I hope, you'll be happy.

I DON'T HATE YOU ANYMORE.
I don't.

(The previous video I posted fully clearly depicts my thoughts and emotions)
-I don't want to talk about it anymore.
那些事真的都已经过去了。
我真的是已经要往前走了。
Every step is gonna be hard, but.. ... I need to.

If I stay here just a little bit longer, if I stay here would you listen to my heart....

2010-08-31T18:46:00.000+08:00

2010-08-31T12:19:00.000+08:00

Going for training later.
Have to reach Funan Epson Library by 2pm.
Super excited manxz.
Gotta go and prepare now.
Bathe and everything.
;)
Sayonara!
PEACE(Y)

2010-08-31T11:55:00.001+08:00

All by myself.

It's not that bad afterall.
If my heart can kick him out, it would be even better.
lol.

It had been very long since I went out with my friends.(exclude my sis and bro from church and cell)
Pathetic ttm.
WJ texted me again.
I really don't know what to reply, so I didn't.
Don't stress me out pleaseeee.

-I'm sucha fool for you.

2010-08-31T11:43:00.003+08:00

Last night, tears kept falling.
I keep thinking why, why is it that he wanna leave me?
I could change.
He said before he didn't expect anyone to change for him.
But I want and I could and I should.
Why he never understood what I was feeling?always.
People said he was immature because he's still very young.
But I never thought of it that way.
I never dare to tell him all those hurtful remarks made by people, worrying it would make him feel sad.
But what's the point now?
NO POINT, just like what he said.
I don't even think he miss me, and he might even be looking for another girl.
But whatever it is, I really hope, he would change for the better when he find his right one.
I wish he wouldn't treat his girl the way he treated me.

2010-08-31T11:33:00.000+08:00

昨天跟你借的幸福
抱歉我有不能还你的苦
看着爱在手心留的纹路
依旧是清清楚楚
昨天跟你借的幸福
是今天以后的回顾
说忘记只是掩人耳目
我在人潮中渐渐失速
哗笑的夜色
我们的故事关上了门
我的心我的耳朵只听见下雨声

I Loved You. I used to say I Love You. But now, it's in past tense. Loved not Love.

2010-08-31T00:10:00.000+08:00

I learnt something...

2010-08-30T23:16:00.004+08:00

I smsed him last night.
Asking the reasons why, why did he want to seperate from me.
But he didn't reply.
I realised that a girl can be self-relient, independent and resourceful -- but also that the more trust I extends, the more vunerable I am.
People who know me well, will realised that I do alot of day-dreaming, and my mind often seemed to wander to those memories.
These memories are desperate to be reclaimed, despite the fact that there is a very good reason I tried to shut them away forever.
Therefore I learnt that I can't keep things buried forever.
It's like trying to hold a bunch of balloons underwater.

Because eventually, I'm going to get tired and they'll start popping up one by one -- so I might as well just let them all go.
Am I right?

2010-08-30T23:16:00.000+08:00

Hey guys, I'd changed my skin!(like duhhhhh rightt?)
Haha.
Yea, anywayyyyyy, meet up with James again and went library to study;)
He's a very good study partner and a good brother.
Haha.
Ate our lunch and went back library.
Halfway, he stoned and after awhile he said he go hom sleep first, then after that then come back to meet me.
He stay very near library!
Coool rightttt.

So after he came back, I finish what I planned to study then we went to coffee shop and he treated me roti prata!
Thanks bro;)
When I get pay I treat you Mac/KFC/BK/anything you want lur.
Not too ex hor!
Haha.
OH YA!!!!
James said he feels that Lor Mee is very scary.
Haha.
Funny ttm lahhh.
Then after that we had nothing to do, so went back to library, then I borrowed 2 books;)
After that met Janice for dinner, then when Wen Hui came, we bid Janice goodbye then the 3 of us went James's house.
Soon after, Yi Boon and Yan Shan reached.
They practiced their songs.
OMG, I really wanna learn guitar!!!!!
Maybe next month bahhh....
I've got lots of things to do you knowwww.
Guitar, braces, bags,medical!
God, help me please!!!

Training @ Epson Library tomorrow at 2pm!
Desmond training meeeeee.
Gosh, he's damn good!
I feel very honoured manzx.
:P
Thursday is coming alreadyyyyy!
COMEX~~~
I really hope I do well, I need to earn lots of money!
Those who read my blog regularly knows the reasons.
;D

PEACE(Y)

2010-08-29T19:36:00.000+08:00

HOOHOOHOO.

I neeeeeedddd tooooo sssstttttuuuudddyyyyy sssssoooooonnnn~~~~~
Exams is coming soooooooooooooon!
OH MY GOD!
=.=
Jia You Ann Nee!

2010-08-29T17:09:00.001+08:00

I'm at bedok library now.
AGAIN, yes, I know.
Brought my beloved brothers to church today and I hope they didn't get freaked out(if you know what I mean).
After church, we waited others to finish practices than headed to Sega to have our lunch.
Then I told them bros and I go food court.
Aunty then said she pay for us!
I felt very bad at the very beginning.
Because she helped me paid for medical fee, gave me 50$ for allowance then now pay for our meals!
Not cheap kay!
Super grateful.

Reading bible but I really can't concentrate because I'm super tired!!!!

Alright.
GTG!
PEACE(Y)

2010-08-29T01:51:00.001+08:00

When I read his blog, i feel like everything was okay, still the same.
Like yesterday we just went out and have fun.
LOL.

Drank too much orange juice and coffee, stomaching like crazy from time to time;(

Anyway, my bagshop opening will be postponed to 2.5 weeks later.
So 请拭目以待吧^^

Will blog more later.
I'm super tired.
Shall eat
My supper and then go to bed le!
Byeeee!
PEACE(Y)

I'm ... ... ...

2010-08-27T17:47:00.000+08:00

@Bedok Library nowwwww!
We moved to 3 different locations to study.
Esplanade Library, Marina Square's food court then lastly Bedok Library!

2010-08-27T12:16:00.001+08:00

I'm @ Esplanade library now!
Studying with James.
Can't concentrate oh manzx!
Should have slept more, if not I'll lose focus super easily de.
I'm hungry.
Stomach giving signals le.
HAHA.
I only brought 6 bucks out!
Shitz!

PEACE(Y)

2010-08-27T07:41:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was a very very exciting day for me!

I had my BTT(Basic Theory Test)!

Before the actual one, we had E-trial(can choose 2 papers to do).

I failed very badly!

Scored 76% and 78% respectively.

;(

I predict I'll fail for the actual test.

But yet, I wanna pass very badly.

So when we sat down, I prayed to God for 2 minutes.

I said I want to pass.

I asked him for confidence and knowledge.

;)
AND I PASSED!

He helped me sooooo much.

Thank you God.

Had a mini celebration with the rest.

Wanted to play pool but I find abit late, so we just went to eat.

Ate Steamboat!

Wa lau, we tio scam!

We ordered a set of ingredients.

Like seafood set, beef set.

Then we thought quite alot.

When it comes, WA LAU EH, pathetic lor.

The seafood set right, there's 2 prawns, 1 tou gan, 2.5 mushrooms, 2 fish balls, 2 tou fu.

??!!!!????!!!

Freaking pathetic!

7.5$ somemore!

zzz

Super lame.

=.=

The most expensive meal ever after!

Took some photos after that.

Very blur!

Meeting James later for study session!

;)

Studying for the whole day then after that going cell group.

He leading worship today!

Jia You!

;)

Every person wishes to be the RIGHT ONE.. ...

2010-08-27T07:10:00.000+08:00

Sometimes when you think back times,
you'll realised that there's many things you think it was, but actually it isn't.
Especially when you are in a relationship.
You thought you were his special one.
But you wouldn't think that the previous ones he had also thought the same way.
Maybe he thinks the same way too.
But after a relationship ends, you're no difference from the ones he had previously.
You'll only be in his 'collection'.

This hits me so hard, telling the fact.
I told him before I don't want, I don't want to be in his 'collection' .
But even if it is, I'm gonna accept it.
The love doesn't exist anymore, it's something I can never get back anymore.

I'm learning, learning how to get use to it.

2010-08-26T11:12:00.000+08:00

YOZ!
I couldn't get to sleep last night!
Because my foot was wrapped!
It felt as if I'm wearing my shoe.
LOL.

Texted with Wei Jie last night.
I asked him when is he coming back to Singapore.
Few months ago he already said he will come lor.
But till now still haven't him.
Yea, he said real soon.
And ask.... ....
Whether I can with him again.
And said this time round, he will be singapore for a long long time and wouldn't be going back le.
He asked me to think about it because he still loves me.
I didn't know what to reply.
I didn't want to get into a relationship now, after being hurt so deep.
In another words, I don't have faith.
Maybe its not the time.
I need to tell him, the truth.
The fact that I can't get him out of heart.
It's not easy forgetting someone whom you love so much, giving him the love wholeheartedly.
But I will try.
I will try.

Meeting Jereme, Glann and Sam later on.
Alright, off to study for my BTT.
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
PEACE(Y)

NUMB

2010-08-25T23:19:00.001+08:00

I just realized the red pills makes me numb.
I put half of it in my mouth for a few seconds while poring water and after that my tongue feels numb.
Zzz.

Had tui na for my ankle and it costs me a bomb!!!!!!
Now I can't even go to the toilet properly!
Because I had to wrap my foot with plastic bag so as to make sure the wrap wrap thing doesn't get wet.
And my skin is very dry now.
I can see and feel it!!!
It's part of the effect though.
But I feel ugly.
When I had my make up on, for awhile only, the powder comes out.
Zzz.
Stupid dry skin!

Having my BTT tomorrow but I haven't touch that book of mine yet!
Doesn't have the mood to study because my head feels heavy and giddy plus dreamy.
Didn't, even go for tuition.
Meeting Sam early tomorrow to eat and study.
Then meeting James on Friday to study then go for cell group together after that.
^^

Promise mommy I'll sleep earlier!
BYE and PEACE(Y)

2010-08-25T16:54:00.000+08:00

Bravo.

Took more than 100 pills of medication!

One month supplies.

Doctor said every 3 months I got to have a blood test.

=.=

Expensive lehhhh.

Although so far all the expenses are not paid by me, I think it's really waste a money lor.

I'm really very very very grateful to YY's mother, YY and Pastor.

They helped me alot, not only financial, but also emotionally.

THANKS ALOT.

I'll try to pay them back and repay them;)

I thank God because in my case, my eyes are not protruding and my throat not too swollen.

THANK GOD!

BYEEEEEEEE.

PEACE(Y)

Gonna have to have my sprained ankle rubbed!

2010-08-25T11:10:00.000+08:00

Dad went crazy.

It was my first time and I wish it would be last.

He punched my on my face and wanted to use a pipe to hit me, but he accidentally poked my eye.

Now my eye ball got a patch of blood.

zzz

Luckily not pain.

Going clinic to get my medicine and report.

Taking cab there.

I'm lazy to take bus there because very troublesome.

Bye guys!

PEACE(Y)

2010-08-24T20:28:00.000+08:00

I hate my face.

Gonna leave my fringe long.

I'm gonna pin up so that it'll stay off from my face and it'll avoid pimples growing.

But it'll means looking older.

haha.

I love to wear tights!♥♥♥♥♥♥

So comfortable and you won't feel hot.

haha.

I wanna buy moreeeeeeee.

But my thighs are huge, so not easy to find.

I want to get my payyyyyyyy!

Don't know whether can get my pay earlier or not.

Hopefully can bah.

Can't wait to go with YY for bag hunt!

OMG OMG OMG.

Getting kkrazy~

MY ANKLE ARRRRRRR.

2010-08-24T20:08:00.000+08:00

Hey people!
I'm back home.
Went to library for abit of revision.
But most of the time I was surfing net ;P
When I was in the library, doctor and told me my report was out.
Bad news?
Yea.
But I'm not worried.
Because I know I have God.
He'll cure me.
I strongly belive.
Every night I talk to him,softly.

Yea, after that, Kin Ren and I went to eat SUBWAY;)
Super full!

Mummy said she's not helping me with the money.
Then howwwww????Where to get the money sia....
See how first bah.
I know God has plans for me;)

Alright, got to sleep early.
I'm tired.

Presenting to you... ... ... ...

2010-08-24T14:29:00.000+08:00

MY LATEST LOVER!

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2010-08-24T13:50:00.000+08:00

YOYOYOYOYO!
I finished deleting almost everything about him!
;)
Actually I didn't want to.
But I think it's best for me to do it this way.
(Y)

I'm happy the way I am now.
Thank God very very much!
I can feel the joy you know.
Amazing!
^^
Put your hands up, put your hands up!
Put your hands up, put your hands up!

2010-08-24T12:56:00.001+08:00

I got a MOLE!

I want to learn hip hop!
But I got no money no time plus no stamina.
-.-
Haha.
Need to exercise more liao.

I'm in the library now;)
Kin Ren also.
HAHA.
So bored! oh man...

2010-08-24T00:42:00.001+08:00

爱情已经过了甜蜜期。
多说也是无意。
爱不爱我已经没关系。
一点小伤而已。
我恨我爱你。

I going esplanade library tomorrow with Kin Ren.
Think need to collect printer also.
Oh my oh my.
It's going 1 le!
Wa lau!!!!!!
Knock me out leh.
Anyway forgot to say I watch step up 3 with yy too.
Oh my god!Damn niceeeee.
Make me feel like learning leh.
=.=
But I lazy.
Need to travel to tampines leh.
Hmmmmm.
See
How first!
The girl damn hot;)

2010-08-23T21:47:00.001+08:00

Oh shit.
I'm having a fever.
I was very tired.
So after I can't home, I teach them abit if math then went to sleep.
After I woke up aroud 9pm.
My whole body was burning and aching.
What da bian lahhhhhhhh.
Just see doctor
Only leh.
Because Aunty and YY helped me pay alot of expenses today, I bought something for my brothers.
5 egg tarts 3 puffs and 3 buns.
I know they love me very much!
Hahaha.
Yea.
Went plaza sing to walk walk and waited for Grace.
But she was sick!
;(
Rest well!
Drink more water and eat more fruits!
An apple a day keeps the doctor away.
I want to buy a billingual bible.
When I get my pay.
And I want to prepare food for my beloved sis and bros when I get my pay.
Yea, I'm setting up a stall to sell bags?
It's my hobby and an interest of mine.
If so, I don't have to work so hard and be so stress.
Sooooo if anyone of you wants to buy, get it from me;)
Hahah.
Think i'll be starting to sell by end of this month, if not after exams.
I'm super enthu!
Need to discuss with mummy first!
PEACE(Y)

I contracted THYROID.

2010-08-23T11:50:00.000+08:00

Yoz moz!!!!
I'm at YY's house now.
;)
YY's mummy and YY accompanied me for check up!
OH MY, can't thank them enough manzx.
They said the doctor is very good^^
When it was our turn.
The 3 of us went in together.
I was the first one to see the doctor.
Explained to the doctor about what I was going through.
And doctor said I might have THYROID.
Oh my, BINGO!
That was what YY and her mummy said they think I had.
So pro right?!
Can be doctors liao.
;)
I didn't know what was that, but I had it anyway.
LOL.
Had blood test because need to confirm.
WA LAU, super interesting leh...
and pain too.
YY had blood test too, she wants to check whether her liver is better.
So we had the same test, same doctor, same plaster!
HAHA!

The fat hand on the left is mine, and the small one is YY's.
The plaster super cute right???
;P

Yea, had a pack of medicine to slow down my heartbeat because mine was pretty fast.
Normal people like you people out there have an average 60 beats per minute.
But mine was X 2.
It was 120.
LIKE OH MY MAMA.
Caused by Thyroid lor.
No wonder my neck is swollen.
And if confirm have, I need to eat medicine for 1.5 years!
WA LAU.
But I need to thank God.
For He is the one who brought me back, helping me realised that I had Thyroid.
Minr is not so serious.
Minor ones.
THANK GOD.
There isn't any proper and exact explanation for the causes.
But most said it was due to stress and poor nutrition.

YY helped me pray;)
I can feel the joy.
Shall see my heartbeat now....
Byeee, meeting Grace too later!

My insomnia

2010-08-23T01:13:00.001+08:00

is getting worse.
Why lehhhhhhhhhhh?
How to get you completely out of my head?
I don't want to keep you anymore.
It'll only make me angry, sad and all those unwanted emotions.
So I want no more.

Having my check up tomorrow.
Sort of nervous.
I'm really afraid.
What if there's really something wrong with my health?
How? What am I supposed to do if so?
Don't think too much Lim Ann Nee.
You're always thinking too much.

Shall do a prayer since I can't sleep.
BYE!
PEACE(Y)

2010-08-23T01:04:00.001+08:00

I thought I deleted everything about him in my phone but there's actually one video still in there.
It was him playing para para.
I forced him to play it because that day.
I was laughing so happily.
I could hear myself.

Why did this happened?!?!?!
I never thought it'll happen in this way.
But it actually happened.

It feels terrible when I think of you but can't ask you how you're doing now.
I'm afraid if I move one step forward, all my backward steps would be wasted.
Every step backwards takes so much effort and heartache.
But I actually did it.
Not fully, not completely, but I did it.
I relieved the memories every night.
I wonder whether you do the same.
The warmth of your hands.
The warmth of your hug.
The glow in your smiles.
The love in your words.
I really wonder whether you meant it when you said you love me.
If you love me, why are you doing this to me?
No matter how I cried and say sorry, explaining, you actually managed to do this to me.
How did you managed to do it when you love me?
From the second you said yes, I felt that the whole world crashed.
I hate you.
I hate you.
I hate you.
I hate you.
X infinity
I hate you tham hao rong.
It doesn't matter whether you love me or don't.
Because I can managed.
I know I can.
The thought of being added to your collection which I kept saying I don't want when you was still by my side hurts like crazy.
But it's okay.

I'm okay.

2010-08-22T22:44:00.001+08:00

I can't get to sleep!!!!

Someone knock me out please!

How how how?

2010-08-22T22:39:00.000+08:00

I had my facial and my face certainly sucks right now.

That's the retribution I got for being cheapstake.

Bravo, how to go out like that?

=.=

2010-08-22T22:17:00.000+08:00

Today was somehow a great day.

But somehow, it's a day bundled with loneliness.

I looked through my phone, my laptop, my ipod, and my camera.

All the memories.

Maybe it's time to put it back behind me and move on.

I know he's doing fine.

I'm glad.

But there's no way I can forgive him for hurting me so bad, for being so cruel so heartless.

I'm glad to have YY, Grace and the others.

Really.

God brought me back to the right track.

;)

They helped me sooooo much.

Giving me comfort and listening ears.

They know how I was feeling.

They're right, I shouldn't dwell myself in him anymore.

There are many more out there.

Better ones, nicer ones, caring ones.

But somehow I can't.

I believe God have plans for me.

I wish him the best in his life.

I hoped he'll change for better, and I will too.

Yea, enough of those emotional feeling.

I have something interesting to post!

OH MY, Sat's night, I followed mummy inside Changi Airport!

So cool.

It was my first time I saw the INSIDE.

I could go in because I had the airport pass.

Mummy drived me around the whole airport, from T1 to T3.

I had a very close look at the airplanes.

So huge so cool so nice.

There were so many different kinds.

Alot of foreign planes.

I took photos.

Secretly.

Yea, that's my mother.

HAHA.

She look weird0.o

Time for some BEAUTIFUL SCENERY.

Oh my, what a good photographer am I and it's super nice!

(click on the photos for an enlarged view.It's very niceeeee!)

Then next, I wanna post some of my photos :P

I was at the office alone while mummy went out to work.

Oh my, my hair damn cui and I look super tired.

One in the vehicle and another at the 'wild'.

Next up, MY FAVOURITE PHOTOS.

I thought I looked beautiful and awesome.
HAHA!!!

Actually not really.

HAHA!

But I just like it lahhhhh...

And lastly, TODAY service was superb!

I managed to surprised quite number of people.

Gonna go there often since I don't work so often now.

;)

Going there makes me happy, forgetting my worries.

You should go there too, don't because the previous made you unhappy, so you don't contact with God.

You should talk to Him often.

;)

Alright, my post is pretty long today.

Happy reading and thanks for reading till the end ^^

PEACE(Y)

Ann Nee's Petrified Fountain of Thoughts.

New Blog Link

I MOVED.

I learnt... ...

有感而发

To my loviest and dearest Wei Ran... ...

STAR

Thoughts... ...

Curing my back...

I'M BACK~

I'm starting to love my packed life... ...

I don't wanna talk about it, how you broke my heart.

A Random Post.

I think I look younger with my hair like this^

Why can't you be more polite and understanding?

When will I then be able to forget... ...

=...=

Message From God... ...

I can't even remember which day we went on our seperate ways.

GAMBETTE!

Message From God... ...

I don't hate you anymore... ...

If I stay here just a little bit longer, if I stay here would you listen to my heart....

I Loved You. I used to say I Love You. But now, it's in past tense. Loved not Love.

Leave a comment if you're reading my blog alright? I don't wish because I remove my tagboard then no one is leaving me a message:(

I learnt something...

I'm ... ... ...

Every person wishes to be the RIGHT ONE.. ...

NUMB

Presenting to you... ... ... ...

I contracted THYROID.

My insomnia

How how how?